A "Martyr" Moment

As I see things changing all around us, I have a twinge of the flesh, every now and again.  The other day as I was standing at the stove canning the umpteenth jar of "something," the thought crept in that there are so many who are talking about the devastation to come, but going on business as usual.  Noah wasn't preparing an ark for everyone who would be knocking on the door when the rain began to fall . . . Since I've been praying that I would take every thought captive, these verses came into my awareness, simultaneously.  I was going to use the verb "slamming" into my awareness, but I'll qualify it here, in that these Scriptures were just something I didn't want to "see" all together.  They did not fit comfortably in my thoughts.

Proverbs 25:21  If thine enemy be hungry, give him bread to eat; and if he be thirsty, give him water to drink:

Matthew 5:44, 45  But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;  That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust.

Matthew 10:36  And a man's foes shall be they of his own household.

Romans 2:4  Or despisest thou the riches of his goodness and forbearance and longsuffering; not knowing that the goodness of G-d leadeth thee to repentance?

The only response I had at that point was to realize, it's truly not in my hands, and my life is not my own.  If part of my ministry is going to be sharing what I've prepared to show the goodness of YHWH that may lead someone to repentance, so be it.  YHWH is not slack concerning His promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance.  II Peter 3:9

It was quite a sermon I received from Ruach HaKodesh this week in the kitchen.  In that personal sermon, I was so overtaken with the goodness of Elohim, and the price that has been paid; And he said, Abba, Father, all things are possible unto thee; take away this cup from me: nevertheless not what I will, but what thou wilt.  Mark 14:36;  it brought me to the place I could simply repeat that one line from the Lord's prayer:  "Thy will be done . . ."